Shame Away

This past week I started listening to podcasts on my commute to school. I live in central Netherlands but study in the south so I have a 4 hour commute per day. I figured podcasts were a good way to spend my time, I could use these four hours to still be working on myself … Continue reading Shame Away

Self Care

Probably the first thing that pops into your mind when I say the words 'self care' is an evening with facials, a nice shower or bath and a big glass of wine. Alas that's not what I'm talking about. I used to relate that to self care too, but the past year I've learned what it really is and why it's so important to focus on that.

Picture Perfect Plan

Dang I thought I had to do everything perfectly. I couldn't get delayed in my studies I needed that to be perfect. Follow the plan precisely, graduate after exactly 4 years and then continue on to my masters. Now thats all thrown out the window because of a semester delay. Im stressing majorly because this isn't how it's supposed to go. It doesn't fit my picture perfect plan. 

Ruts

Ruts are hard. I'm in a rut right now and they're difficult to get out of. I figured I can't be the only one struggling with this so I'm gonna write about it and share my take on how to get out of one. It feels like the past few weeks have just been downhill. Everytime something happens and I try to be positive about it but each time it just chips pieces away more and more. Now I'm at the point where I'm thinking enough! Because I can't continue going on like this. I'm currently writing this from my sofa, having trouble dealing with the tension I feel inside me and getting up and doing something. It doesn't help that the next earliest appointment with my therapist is December 30th, that's a long wait to keep sitting with this. 

Conquering Mental Illness

Fighting against mental illness can be really though sometimes. It has the capability to cloud everything so much that we don't see a way out anymore. I hate that at times my anxiety takes over, that I start believing the lies it tells me because that's what it helps me to focus on in communication with others. That sometimes it means going to bed right after dinner and still having trouble getting up the next morning, that socialising can become difficult because its exhausting dealing with the sensory overload inside your head and pretending that everything is okay.