Probably the first thing that pops into your mind when I say the words 'self care' is an evening with facials, a nice shower or bath and a big glass of wine. Alas that's not what I'm talking about. I used to relate that to self care too, but the past year I've learned what it really is and why it's so important to focus on that.
Dang I thought I had to do everything perfectly. I couldn't get delayed in my studies I needed that to be perfect. Follow the plan precisely, graduate after exactly 4 years and then continue on to my masters. Now thats all thrown out the window because of a semester delay. Im stressing majorly because this isn't how it's supposed to go. It doesn't fit my picture perfect plan.
We crack when we break, every single thing that happens to us that's 'negative' cracks us a bit,but every time we crack we allow more light to shine through us. We are born to shine.
All of a sudden the leaves were gone The pages were turned, the end of the song But the Skies are still rich with fire From every colour between red and blue Maybe there are some things that never end And for those that do, there’s a new beginning instead.
I'm changing things up a bit. When I originally started this blog it was for my integration back into The Netherlands after being away my entire life. There honestly isn't much more to write about that. Maybe every now and then something will come up but I want to shift gears to something more relevant … Continue reading New Beginnings
You took a leap of faith with me, we had an adventure and made memories that no one and nothing can take away. I would do it all over again if I could.
Goodbye's are the most inevitable things in our lives. They're the most painful yet at the same time the easiest. We are so used to saying bye to people that it becomes habit, a routine. Most of the time thinking in the back of your head, 'I'll see you somewhere again' cause that's the life we have.
I'm so used to doing whatever I want whenever I want cause for quite a while I haven't had to keep anyone in mind. Could live completely free of responsibilities or whatever, but that's changing now.
A lot of people struggle with faith because if God is good then why does he allow bad things to happen to us? Even his most faithful servants often get the most painful moments. I struggled with that too, the year behind me was the worst I could’ve had with friends dying, friends being diagnosed with severe illnesses, people I love ditching me, and my own struggle with depression. I felt in pain, alone, and not able to rationalise that bad things happen because it felt like that was those were the only things happening to me for a while. Until I realised three core truths to myself
Meeting God in the middle is confusing, because where is the middle. It's scary because what's that gonna mean? It's difficult because the world is not that great a place and we were never promised an easy or enjoyable life. But it's worth it. I may have had to face some hard truths that I was struggling with these things, and deal with emotions I'd much rather have suppressed, but because I didn't I had such a rich day, I felt on fire and honestly still can't quite shut up about it.