It changed the way I dealt with my break up, how I reacted when I was assaulted at the Train Station, what I did when I was learning to become who I wanted to be, in my friendships and relationships.
Three years later this still doesn't feel entirely like home, I don't think any place will be as much of a home as Singapore was. I realised that I don't need something to live up to Singapore, I just had to find a place for everything in my head and be content with where I was at.
2020 had started off as such a shit show, at least it felt that way to me. But that doesn't mean we should let it wreck the rest of our year. Just because the appetizer is bad doesn't mean you throw away the main course. I want to narrow down my vision, create my path and work every single day relentlessly towards that. I invite you to join me.
Probably the first thing that pops into your mind when I say the words 'self care' is an evening with facials, a nice shower or bath and a big glass of wine. Alas that's not what I'm talking about. I used to relate that to self care too, but the past year I've learned what it really is and why it's so important to focus on that.
Dang I thought I had to do everything perfectly. I couldn't get delayed in my studies I needed that to be perfect. Follow the plan precisely, graduate after exactly 4 years and then continue on to my masters. Now thats all thrown out the window because of a semester delay. Im stressing majorly because this isn't how it's supposed to go. It doesn't fit my picture perfect plan.
We crack when we break, every single thing that happens to us that's 'negative' cracks us a bit,but every time we crack we allow more light to shine through us. We are born to shine.
All of a sudden the leaves were gone
The pages were turned, the end of the song
But the Skies are still rich with fire
From every colour between red and blue
Maybe there are some things that never end
And for those that do, there’s a new beginning instead.
I’m changing things up a bit. When I originally started this blog it was for my integration back into The Netherlands after being away my entire life. There honestly isn’t much more to write about that. Maybe every now and then something will come up but I want to shift gears to something more relevant…
You took a leap of faith with me, we had an adventure and made memories that no one and nothing can take away. I would do it all over again if I could.
Goodbye's are the most inevitable things in our lives. They're the most painful yet at the same time the easiest. We are so used to saying bye to people that it becomes habit, a routine. Most of the time thinking in the back of your head, 'I'll see you somewhere again' cause that's the life we have.