This is my answer when people ask me if I am happy about my status as a Third Culture Kid. It's what pops in my mind when I want to quit everything and just settle. It's the nagging thought that forces me to get out of bed and get my shit together, because I know that I've tasted bits and pieces of who I want to be. I know I'll never be happy with myself if I let all that slide because it's more comforting to stay in bed or at home or whatever your safe area is.
If there's anything that this year taught us, for me it's that in the blink of an eye, everything can change. People around me keep saying we gotta make it to 2021, soon everything will get better, and I do believe things will get better. However I do think we need to remember to live in the now, that like this past year everything can change in the blink of an eye. We don't know what the next year holds for us but I pray that it's many good things. Just don't forget there are good things right now.
It changed the way I dealt with my break up, how I reacted when I was assaulted at the Train Station, what I did when I was learning to become who I wanted to be, in my friendships and relationships.
Three years later this still doesn't feel entirely like home, I don't think any place will be as much of a home as Singapore was. I realised that I don't need something to live up to Singapore, I just had to find a place for everything in my head and be content with where I was at.
2020 had started off as such a shit show, at least it felt that way to me. But that doesn't mean we should let it wreck the rest of our year. Just because the appetizer is bad doesn't mean you throw away the main course. I want to narrow down my vision, create my path and work every single day relentlessly towards that. I invite you to join me.
Probably the first thing that pops into your mind when I say the words 'self care' is an evening with facials, a nice shower or bath and a big glass of wine. Alas that's not what I'm talking about. I used to relate that to self care too, but the past year I've learned what it really is and why it's so important to focus on that.
I’m changing things up a bit. When I originally started this blog it was for my integration back into The Netherlands after being away my entire life. There honestly isn’t much more to write about that. Maybe every now and then something will come up but I want to shift gears to something more relevant…
You took a leap of faith with me, we had an adventure and made memories that no one and nothing can take away. I would do it all over again if I could.
Goodbye's are the most inevitable things in our lives. They're the most painful yet at the same time the easiest. We are so used to saying bye to people that it becomes habit, a routine. Most of the time thinking in the back of your head, 'I'll see you somewhere again' cause that's the life we have.
I'm so used to doing whatever I want whenever I want cause for quite a while I haven't had to keep anyone in mind. Could live completely free of responsibilities or whatever, but that's changing now.