Accepting imperfection has always been difficult to me, thinking and certainly believing that immediately I had to be perfect in things made the fall so much steeper when I failed to be. It took my motivation and crushed it because I thought I couldn't after failing my first attempt.
I hate that things are changing now and everything will be different, but I also know to trust the process and be in it. Don't avoid the process because you don't want to be there, everything has something to teach you. Go through it, embrace it, and learn from it.
A few weeks ago I was broken, a simple college student who no longer had to motivation or determination for anything including life. Lying on the couch just crying because everything was a mess and there seemed to be no way out. Crippling fear going through your body because everything seems to be going wrong and all the hope you once had for your future now being gone.