"It's okay to struggle with that and not always be my happy self" which honestly was weird and difficult to hear. I had always grown up thinking I had to keep my best foot forward, not show if something was wrong. Yet they showed me I was allowed to be imperfect.
It's one of those questions that you're never going to get one straight answer for, because some things we will never understand until we are with God. However what I am hoping to accomplish with this post is not giving you an answer, but argue why things happen and why they are allowed to happen. It all comes down to trust.