It's also the most fruitful, the most refining, you burn all those bad parts away and get down to the core. You're stripped of things you thought you were to become things you're meant to be. It means not being afraid to show vulnerability, allow yourself to cry, to scream, anything, as long as you don't allow yourself to give up.
At first I was scared to be different, everyone was from one culture and there I was some random kid from the other side of the world with a strong accent and broken Dutch. I kinda just wanted to fit in with people and not be treated differently.
God was never far, he was always right there beside me but I just had to go through the test without directly hearing or feeling him next to me. However he is always faithful. The fact that I am here today proves that, because alone I would not have come out of that valley, but because of his faithfulness to me I am where I am today.