Moving across the world without your parents at the age of 18 can be frightening. For the first time you’re on your own and have to take care of everything yourself. People respond differently to these situations, some may choose to lean on family/friends or their religion for support and have full trust that God will make things right for them and take care of them. Then there’s me, who likes to do things on my own and not trust God’s plan whatsoever.
I have found in my life that there are many situations where I could have trusted God, but instead leaned on myself for support and understanding. I’ve come across times where I thought God stopped caring and left me all alone. That he left and took all my friends away only to realise a few months later he brought even better friends into my life. Times where I nearly moved countries because I didn’t feel like I could be in Singapore much longer only to stay and have it help me overcome some strong demons I faced.
Now I have caught myself in a situation where I’m halfway across the world from my parents and home, and have to take care of things myself. During the transition period I learned to see that there are many situations in which I need to place my trust in God and stop worrying so much. Things such as being in a long distance relationship, finding the correct group of friends or even finding friends for that matter, keeping the tight relationship with my parents, etc.
Trusting in God is a lesson I seem to continuously need to relearn, and every few months I get given quite a good lesson. However I am thankful for these continuous lessons and reminders because every time I get to ‘relearn’ to trust in God there is an immense weight taken off me that I don’t need to have my whole life together or take care of everything myself. Life will take its course. We do what we can to make it the best and we leave the rest to God.
I have felt this lesson come strongly since March 2017 and I constantly get reminders to be placing my trust in God. During that time I came across a verse, Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
This verse here brought a lot of peace and comfort to me knowing I did not need to control every situation alone, and I hope it brings that same peace to you.